When a person is down luck, even by walking, he can step into shit.

My father always say: When a person is down luck, even by walking, he can step into shit.
I guess today I really fall to the deepest hell pit.
Two weeks of hard work in project which I give up going to Taipei, today I got the nagging of my project is hard to understand, and the English is not good. I will fail if I submit like this and I better redo everything.
If I know I will fail my project until like this, I think I go Taipei and never submit to fail seem more worth it.
Anyway after all the ding dong, I had to rush as I parked my car outside with the risk of getting another lucky toto ( Car park fine ) for late return , I step up the classroom which I forgotten of the high step , I fall and got my left leg foot to sprain.
Lucky my classmates are really kind to help me out to let me see the care when I really need to with all the depression.
Really Thankful to my friend, she really helps me out by holding me to the carpark which located outside the school.

A carpark fee of $0.50 ( with risk of $6.00 - $20.00 fine ) + ERP of $2.00 + medical fee of $47.00 , I so hated myself to go to the class today to show him the project for final viewing, at least I submit directly, I know nothing , afterall I will only see my final result , which a just pass marks , that will be fine.

Now I have not do my another project which both fall the dateline on 24 Nov and 25 Nov 2008, I wonder what can I do now.

Guess that what I been telling my friend, I so hate myself to bring the shit to pour into ownself, by spending money to get the stress out of nothing.

Now I spend my time to update this blog to nag my pain of heart : I should have go Taipei for holiday instead of waste time.

月華 - 北出菜奈 ( Nana Kitade )

My sister show me this MTV during the weekend , told me that the dress in the MTV was really nice ,personally , I love the head-set itself. But it was super expensive lor , when that time I saw it it japan.

Anyway I told my sister maybe next time if got chance , we should dress something like this in our wedding or family photo shooting and not those wedding white dress or normal dress like other family…I love Japanese goltic and lolita ^^

Anyway Enjoy the song , is really nice too ^^

月華 - 北出菜奈 ( Nana Kitade )

Getting tired...........

I getting tired…….with the life of stress, uncertainly and insecure.

Everytime people will think me as lucky girl. I still remember my previous company, an idot scold me in front of crowd , with lots of bad things yet somehow people think and feel sorry for him cause he been telling people how poor and how life was unfair to him while I can feel people think I just too straight and not understanding.

They won’t know … sometime by putting a smile on the face didn’t mean that you are really happy, and crying don’t have to be in front of people.

A lot of time, I cried but not in the front and every time I fall down, I have to climb up myself and look straight to the route I take and not to show my weakness…because I know that is what I have choosed or did I?

Sometime , when i in between the role of bad and good , I start to confused...

how much wound, can I still take…………

Heaven to hell again..............

I should be happy today because I just got my exam result which I been worried so much for months and it turned out to be better than I think.

However I suddenly at the heaven to hell again....

My dad just donates to some unknown charities called shoulin or something (not registered as charities) of $1888.00 for their stupid so called yearly event.

This was not the 1st time, not saying yearly event but more like monthly event because recent September, he just donates to them, which they claimed was for yearly event. I don’t understand one year so many yearly event, as well call monthly event and we don’t even know them. So why keep asking for donation from us?

And the most clever part is that they send an old man to collect the donation. Isnt this more like tried to grain the pity and also like let people dont have the chance to reject.

Some of them are even worest, they called in using different name just to get reach of my dad. Telling lies of their name , is this a real charities should do?

Not that I am stingy or something, but simply called and asked for thousand or even more everytime for their stupid event. If no money, don’t do event lah, is not like donate because of poor people who really needed it or whatever.

Yet my dad is so super generous just to “donate” when they called.

I can't said anything , only that I getting tired of these shits..